Sparkle

Should not have geh kiang and only ask for one day MC. Body is completely functioning on it’s own accord. The nose, brain, throat and legs even my taste buds are all doing different things at totally random intervals. Durkheim disapproves. Looking on the brighter side, I’ve not lost my sense of humour, or whatever’s left of it. :(

At the end of the day, there is only one rule. To just keep giving for those who care. It really is as simple as that. To give and give and give and give. The problem now roots from how do we know if people care. Here, it kinda summarizes everything up nicely. “People are never perfect, so you will not always get along with the person who cares about you. Sometimes you will be frustrated, or feel ignored, or accidentally ignore them, or fight. Mistakes will be made, because hey, we’re all human. But then time passes, and if you can, you rectify the situation. Because that’s what you do with people who truly matter.”

Today, I made a decision that to give unconditionally is to be absolutely honest with myself about these recipients. To start off on the right note is key. 

Haven’t felt this shitty in a long long time (5 months?) please lemme get well soon! 

Secretly on a mission to lose weight so I’ll look oh-so-fabulous in my Europe trippin’ photos. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

It’s been awhile since I’d ever felt so into the whole idea of puppy love. Something must happened along the way. Hahaha! But the answer still remains as a ‘no’. No particular reason behind it. Just, no. It might be the reason why I make myself so busy. But still, no. Am happy with who I am, what I do in life to get me by and what’s ahead. Excited and wary. Need to keep these in mind: Because He lives, I can face tomorrow. Because He lives, all fear is gone. Because I know, He holds the future. And life is worth the living, just because He lives. Am not an exceptionally good Christian, but this really struck me at an appropriate time today when I was worried sick about life. Everything being so distant and unclear at times, it really makes me want to ask God what plans does he have for me. Was I made for great things? Am I ready to trod this life laid out for me? The answer is simple and came in a way that made me realize that I’ve been making things way too complicated for my understanding. Humans are imperfect, we doubt, we falter and make bad decisions. But so what? Everyone does that. We just need to place our faith in Him fully. Life is going to be the ride of a lifetime (literally). We will make mistakes and feel lonely. Only when we understand that as long as trust in Him fully, nothing will go wrong. Things happen, maybe for some reason or another, but it is always in His time. In His time, He makes all things beautiful. 

Oh well, then again this might be another one of those posts to remind myself of how self-consoling an escapist I am. HAHAHA. It’s okay, just laugh. Just laugh and say no.